Well, it's been an interesting year for sure... and while it's not over I do think it's close enough to the end of its lifespan that I can talk about it a bit right now.

This year we saw some crazy shit go down:

Yeah right, I'm not going to re-cap that shit... watch CNN on NYE if you want that shit.

What I will say is this, I was able to learn quite a bit this year about relationships and how my actions affect other people. I was also able to learn that it's often better just to bite your tongue and not say what you want in anger than to blurt it out and pay the consequences.

I think more than anything else though, I learned that we all have a safety net in life, but that each time we use that net it loses it's strength a bit. I can tell by the repeated fuckups that I made this year, and how I got to see the sharks swimming in the boiling water below just a little better each time I fell.

On top of that, I think I believe that everything happens for a reason just a bit more as well. It seems that I met and cut off a fair amount of people this year as well, each with their own purpose. Really from these changes I've realized that you don't always know everyone forever like you might want to.

I grew apart from a very good friend of mine, but at the same time I'm happy that I did so because I think our relationship was bordering an unhealthy state.

Another couple of good friends of mine didn't even return my "Merry X-Mas" SMS greeting... another unintended "test" that had the added effect of showing me the true colors of a number of people in my phone book. I guess I'm glad that I don't hang out with them anyhow.

That's it for now...


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Labels: changes, christmas, growth, thoughts